this would be the perfect time to die
Read moreI want nothing more than to be wiped away, existing is too hard
Read moreOf course no one would care if i was around or not, i am nothing special, i am fat, i am ugly, i am a waste of space, i am stupid, i have no future, i am tired and sad and some days i don’t want to do anything, i cant give anyone what they […]
Read moregreat turmoil is standing amongst the green of nature and still wondering when a tree will fall on top of you
Read moreI had a thought today about whether we’ll always end up -together- i didn’t want to waste time, not for me but for you. I wanted to give you enough time with the love of your life. And in that moment I knew what love was show me
Read moreMirrors
We are sat with tiny china tea cups found at the back of my cupboard bought for me for ‘special occasions’. It seemed odd to deem this a special occasion. It was quiet, uncomfortably so, and the mirrors in the room seemed to cast light upon dark walls where there should be no light. I […]
Read more "Mirrors"and through tears that burned holes into translucent skin, it was clear
Read moreSomedays I want to die.
Somedays I will want to die. Somedays my body will rock back and forth and the arms around my legs will not stop the chattering of my teeth or the way I talk to myself and say ‘I want to die’ and ‘I want to go home’ when I am sat living and I am […]
Read more "Somedays I want to die."Is it raining where you are?
It is raining where I am, it is cold and I can’t fathom how poetic that feeling is to my nature. I fear that I shall never be enough for anyone and it is exhausting, I don’t know how to be more anymore and I wonder if this will cause a lack of love on […]
Read more "Is it raining where you are?"Who I am
It’s weird going through a phase with yourself where you don’t even know who you are to yourself, whether you like yourself or whether you’re a good person. I want to think that I am good, that I hold the capabilities of being wonderful, something that someone can be proud of instead of me just […]
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The elephant in my house 